# Half

半小時的澡。
過去一年，該痛的沒痛；該想的沒想。

心臟終於負荷不了了？

# 我未能忘掉你@1992

01:36@903
i m lying on my bed, listening to this song..
somehow, i can still remember the way i love u.

sweet dreams tonight :))

# Dreams when i nap

午睡發的夢, 醒來還清晰記著。

當時；忽然世界末日了。
黃色地鐵站，跟同學一堆人，沒像逃難，是放學；只地鐵站人也沒半隻。

後來；
我；他們道別了。這時，在藍色地鐵站；我，從二樓往一樓跳下去。
我想，是醒來唯一方法。

在夢裡醒來，2001年。
我沒變年輕，還是這模樣；我，在往家跑，路漆黑，是夜晚，昏黃街燈很遠。
地鐵站的門口，再一次，跟2010年的同學道別。

左轉是我；他們右轉。


腦袋想...我可以找到01年的自己，擁有兩個自我。
　　　　就這一刻，醒來了。

# 心臟

我愛你。
將心臟劃下幾刀, 掀開, 騰出最大空間, 放你進去 ; 縫, 每針刺痛, 卻樂在其中。
感受著你心跳與我心跳; 相連 ; 感受最近的距離 ;

後來你掙扎了, 想走了 ; 我不放。
你就在我心臟劃下你的憎恨 ; 傷痕似乎深得痊癒不了。

數一下 ; 這些年 ; 心臟裡是多少人的淚或恨。多少人連屍骨也無存了?
放心吧。就算我現在不放你 ; 有一天你在我心的房間亦會被人取代。


幾個人矛盾的存活在我心臟裡 ; 撕殺吧 ; 我心是你的。

# Admit who u r

People should know what they can do, n admit it if they suck!

let say it this way ::

if u r stupid, just admit it, and .. ask for help when problems show up.
its nth wrong to be stupid, no one is really that smart to be someone who can do everything by himself. :P
n, being stupid is a good thing in some ways, u can take less responsibility, hell yeah! just tell people u don't know how to do this or that, then people will help u, and if its screw up, just throw the one who help u out of the bus!!! :D

love u all, stupid bitches ;)))!

# Missing.

i miss the way u smile,
n how i look into ur eyes, the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen in the world.



Seriously, had a very bad week, everything sucks, really fucked up, being so emo, lol.
but hey, there's one thing i m totally good at, which is suck it up :P so now, i think i m doing very okay, n thanks for all the SMS from u.

u always being so nice, well maybe not all the time, but still, u r a very good person, n a very important one in my present life :)))


n well, hving someone to support myself is really important for me in life, it really sucks when there's no one being supportive around you, so, i know i m lucky, always lucky :)))
i miss u deeply :)))
just never wanna tell u, as i guess u already knew, u know me very well :D u always do.


n somehow,
i guess i need a lover, not a life-time partner, without any responsibility, theres more freedom for us to expore our life :P
or, i m just too scared to shoulder anything :P:P:P:PPPP

what a evil kid i m :D